I grew up in a very diverse background. My father was a doctor so very logical and scientific and mother is an artist so very creative and spiritual. My mothers side of the family is unique as her father grew up in India as a son to Presbyterian missionary parents. ...
07-31-2007, 03:32 PM
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| My God Story I grew up in a very diverse background. My father was a doctor so very logical and scientific and mother is an artist so very creative and spiritual. My mothers side of the family is unique as her father grew up in India as a son to Presbyterian missionary parents. My dads family side were run of the mill Roman Catholic. I was raised as Catholic and we most always went to church on Sunday. The priest was our good friend and he came over to our house on occassion. We always had my aunt over for all holidays who was a nun in Catholicism. We started early taking sunday school from her and learning about God when I was just starting grade school. She was a unique nun as she was also a very good artist and very loving and open to most things. This was my first taste of God. fast forward.... I was in fifth grade. My dad's brother died (my uncle) from a brain tumor and that night my father who is very logical and scientific and does not believe in anything of this nature said his brother visited him that night after his death. He had a conversation with him and he was not sleeping. My mother confirmed this as she was there. I didn't know what to believe. fast forward.... I am in my senior year in high school. My life is great. I have a huge group of friends and dating the hottest and most popular girl (prom queen) for a year. I am invincible as most testosterone filled 17 year olds think. God is farthest from my thoughts at this point as any in my life. Then my father is diagnosed with a brain tumor the most aggressive kind same as his brother. My pre-conceived world crumbles around me as his cancer spreads fast and takes over his basic motor functions. I go from not having a care in the world to literally saving my father's life as he stops breathing and I perform CPR keeping him alive until the paramedics arrive on several occassions. You never know how you will react in a crisis situation. You will not know until your soul is tested. I am completely lost at this point as I really never cried through my teenage years as most boys don't. Then my father dies while I try my best to save him. He had a blood clot travel from his leg to his lungs during a very intensive chemo bed ridden treatment. Nothing I could do. At that moment I become a man. I will explain some of my experience as I could write a book about the knowledge gained from it. These experiences did not happen all at once as this was over about a year period. This was a critical sink or swim moment in my life as this was also the closest I came to suicide. My world had forever been altered and my girlfriend whom I had fallen madly in love with dumped me same week father died. This is where I literally dive into the other world. I mean this in the most literal sense. Half of me was present and the other half was in a different level of consciousness. During this time I gained so much awareness and knowledge about God that I don't even know where to begin. Words do not give my descriptions justice. I went to a very spiritual nun I knew and she led me through a meditation excercise with her. This particular excercise encompassed a lot of Buddhist beliefs. During this meditation I saw God. Yes I was at his feet. Not really him per say but an all encompassing love that fills you so completely that nothing else matters. I felt God through every small space between the cells in my body. I was humbled at that moment. The nun that led me in this meditation was crying uncontrollably as she said she felt the warmest light and love she has ever felt in her life as she sat next to me. She knew I met God. I slowly starting hearing His voice. Yes God's voice in my head answering my questions. I starting seeing things. I could see energy coming off of other people's bodies. I could telll what mood people are in by their energies as they are different colors primarily red and blue. I went to mass and could see the energy coming from the sacraments. A pure light that is undescribable. A particular claravoent moment I remember at a mass I was praying to God for a sign and to hear and see God. Then the church bell rang and no one could explain it as the priest said there must be a malfunction. I knew without a doubt that was God's presence answering my request. Luckily I started psychotherapy at this point...... I started the next few years diving deep into spirituality. I came in contact with some very great spiriutal leaders of our time. I also started spiritual direction with a renowned jesuit priest and well known author and recovering alcoholic. During these times we would explore the very depths of Jesus and God. We both had a great time doing this once a week for over a year. Also started seeking out other spiritual leaders as my aunt is Buddhist and I started conversing with her local spiritual leader or Lama. I also attended some of there rituals. Also had a good friend who was a native American medicine woman and I started talking with her alot. She led me to some sweat lodges and spiritual rituals they cherish which was really neat to learn about and see. During this time I became very connected to nature and particular the birds. Whenever I was really concerned about something I would always find a sign in nature for the answer. I also started seriously mountain climbing so I was always in nature so this was a perfect fit and a great outlet to explore. A great metaphor as well as I physically climbed mountains I also was emotionally climbing them inside as well. I must say that during this time I also saw real evil as well. Not the funny looking comical devil you see but I met real bone chilling evil fight for your soul. When someone is this open during these times it is not always good coming your way but evil as well. Evil came across my path on several occassions. One of the worst cases was in Prague Checklosavakia. I went there just after they lifted the ban on foreign tourists entering the place. I felt the oppressions take hold of me like no other. I was bed ridden for a day and thought I would seriously lose it from the amount of negative energy and evil I felt. I was describing things that I had no worldy knowledge of knowing. One other notable time was when I was at one of my lowest points shortly after my father died. I was wanting to be near him again have some connection so I got the great idea of going to visit his grave site. Normally that is fine but it just so happened to be around 1 am and so I scaled the fence and walked a good mile into the cemetary. I can not tell you what evil I felt there. I was going there wiht love in my heart but that soon changed. I saw things that make me still shiver to this day. The darkness that came over me was almost unshakable. Well I think that is all I will share with you for now. I can go on and on but really some of the most important things I keep close to my heart and cherish them as my own so I won't share them. God is very real. God is love and it is up to every person on their own to find this inside of themselves. Don't take my word for it! A side note. I never took drugs or even drank a sip of aclohol during this whole time in my life which was about 5 years. I was too connected at this time to bother and didn't want that experience to be soiled by alcohol. Last edited by Roonie; 07-31-2007 at 03:51 PM. | ||||
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07-31-2007, 04:00 PM
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| Never, never, never give up  Conservative Party High Point, NC
| Wow. Great story. I gotta admit I laughed at this part:
 I hope it was meant to be funny!So what kinds of things did you see or vision when you were in Prague? I was surprised to hear this because I never really thought about Prague being a bad place. I had to go back and re-read it because after I finished I thought you meant Chechnya. My wife seems to be really in touch with feelings of good and bad. She is much more aware then I am and has some pretty interesting stories of things that have happened to her. I wonder if it was her openness and awareness that allowed her dad to visit us so often. | ||||
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07-31-2007, 04:23 PM
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| Originally Posted by Stylerod 
It was meant to be funny. If you can't laugh at yourself in the darkest of times then God save your soul. While I was in Prague we stayed at a local old ladies house with minimal furnishings. I saw clearly visions of lots and lots of tanks roaring down the street with soldiers marching and the fear was unbeleivable. I saw death and evil surrounding the area. The local lady spoke little english but she was very worried about me. I was telling her what I could see and feel and she was terrified and told me as best she could what I described is exactly what happened many years ago as she saw it with her own eyes. All she could do was sit vigil over me and pray which is exactly what she did. The other feelings and visions I will need to look up in my diary as I wrote all about it in vivid detail. I do remember being scared for my life and wishing I was dead rather than continue what I was feeling. Luckily it only lasted a day and the rest of the trip was great, nothing but cheerful memories. It is definately without a doubt your wife's openness and awareness that let these experiences happen. I still have visits from my dad every so often especially when I am about to make a huge life change. Mostly now he comes in dream form as I have lost my connectedness I had to the other world. The dreams are very vivid though. Last edited by Roonie; 07-31-2007 at 04:38 PM. | ||||
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07-31-2007, 04:50 PM
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| no es mi culpa  Independent Beantown
| have you ever gone to any mediums? you might have a gift my friend. you should explore it! if you can see people's auras, that's very unique. i got an aura photo taken once of me.. mostly red with a bit of purple around me heat.. lol.
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07-31-2007, 05:02 PM
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| Originally Posted by Linzyhop
I have never gone to any mediums before. I guess I take it for granted and be honest I never tell anyone about it. I usually know what the person is feeling by their color. No one knows this. I am hardly ever verbal about any of my experiences. My best friends don't even know these stories. I have many more I could post but again I am a very private person and these are some of my deepest experiences on this earth so far. | ||||
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07-31-2007, 05:07 PM
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| no es mi culpa Independent Beantown
| Originally Posted by Roonie roonie! you should definitely explore it! i've been to a couple mediums before and it's a very powerful experience for me. i'm sure you would take even more from it.
wow. i'm very jealous of your gift! i have minimal ESP (sort of runs in the family) but seeing peoples auras and the other stuff you've described is incredible! | ||||
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07-31-2007, 05:36 PM
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| Never, never, never give up Conservative Party High Point, NC
| Originally Posted by Linzyhop
The ESP thing runs in my wifes family as well. It happens so often I don't even think it's weird anymore My wife has said she never wants to go to a medium. What happens to her kind of freaks her out a little and she is fine with what she has. She said she doesn't really want to find out what else she might be able to do. | ||||
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08-01-2007, 07:52 AM
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| minor irritant &/or non-entity News Moderator Contrarian Birmingham, UK
| Do you feel any need to question or test your 'supernatural' abilities? For instance Can you tell the temp of inanimate things by looking at them? (ie perhap for can see into the infraread) & i'm compelled to ask this coz I always have done Does God have an accent? If I had the resources I'd fly you blindfolded to numerous battlefields. But perhaps that would be cruel thing to do.
I very much want to commend you for your honesty, which is staggering. Thank you very much for sharing In truth I'm envious of your abilities Last edited by avsp; 08-01-2007 at 09:26 AM. | ||||
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08-01-2007, 09:42 AM
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| Originally Posted by avsp I have never had the drive to test them. If anything they frighten me somewhat. I can tell you inanimate things don't have any color coming from them at all. Only living things like animals and people. Animals are all pretty much the same color so they are not that interesting. People however sometimes have huge color and others almost none at all.
My voice I hear sounds exactly like my own. indistinguishable. I ask a question and it is if I am answering it but without thinking about it. The only thing I prayed for day and night was some sign from God, to see, or hear, or understand him. Some sign that I was not alone on this planet and God didn't exist. I prayed for many days for this to happen right after my father's death. To save me from myself. I guess I got my wish somewhat. I was at my lowest point ever. Sink or swim circumstance...... ie suicide. These abilities are not something I promote or even foster. I have pretty much stuffed them away for the past 5 years and concentrated on my life in this world. I have kids and I just want to be there for them. I still have dialogue every so often when I am seeking answers to my life and what direction I should go in. I must say everytime I have gotten an answer it has been right on in retrospect. It has lead me to a better life and greater success. The colors don't intrest me too much. I will only take notice if someone shows black or lack of color. Then I steer clear of them and don't let my kids even near them. I usually get bad feelings about those folks. Funny story... my dogs also are very friendly chocolate labs. They love everyone. I was taking them for a walk once and I saw this individual walking up the street with nothing but black surrounding him. Both of my dogs hair rose on end and they started growling and bearing their teeth at this guy. I was apologetic about it and moved to the side of the road to let him pass. They guy made my hair rise on end. I have developed my intuition though. I now know instantly about strangers whether they are good hearted folks or carry alot of anger around. I can also tell you what kind of environment develops good feelings almost like Feng Shwei (sp?). I buy homes and fix them up for a living and several homes I have walked into I have to walk right out of because they carry so much negativity. One home in particular I went into I got vivid scenes of abuse happening. I couldn't buy that home on principle. My homes are very sought after as almost everyone who walks into them instantly loves it and the environment it creates. I have a long waiting list of folks wanting my homes site unseen. I also surround myself and family with good hearted folks. Last edited by Roonie; 08-01-2007 at 09:48 AM. | ||||
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08-01-2007, 09:54 AM
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| no es mi culpa Independent Beantown
| that's truly awesome. do you have a daughter? it must come in handy when she brings guys home! or at least it will!! | ||||
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08-01-2007, 10:01 AM
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| Originally Posted by Linzyhop
Two boys ages 5 and 3. Both are very sensitive kids. without getting to weird on you I have come to realize my experience was for the sole benefit for me to be my kids guardian angels here on earth in a physical form. There father but also more. A litehouse through the fog. Something solid where they can feel absolutely safe and fully themselves. That is my gift to them and my contribution back to this world. | ||||
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08-01-2007, 10:04 AM
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| no es mi culpa Independent Beantown
| Originally Posted by Roonie that's really cool. you should be a guidance counselor or something... use your gift for the greater good!
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08-01-2007, 11:21 AM
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| minor irritant &/or non-entity News Moderator Contrarian Birmingham, UK
| Thanks for the informative reply Originally Posted by Roonie My internal dialogue almost entirely consists of two voices that both sound alike & each continually question each other till they dont (ie theres a non-speaking third person who
So, either, in what way does your internal dialogue differ from mine? or how do you distinguish your God 'voice' from your other thought processes?
What does 'to pray' mean to you? When you say 'night & day' is that literally? Hands up who wants to sponsor Roonie to travel to meet as many political candidates as possible so that he can report on their aura? | ||||
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08-01-2007, 11:35 AM
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| Never, never, never give up Conservative Party High Point, NC
| Originally Posted by avsp Oh hell yeah!
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08-01-2007, 11:40 AM
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| no es mi culpa Independent Beantown
| Originally Posted by avsp
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08-01-2007, 12:10 PM
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| minor irritant &/or non-entity News Moderator Contrarian Birmingham, UK
| Originally Posted by Stylerod
Originally Posted by Linzyhop I'm sure that within each of our biaseses's', (biaii?), we can understand that this could very well be cruel to him.
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08-01-2007, 12:16 PM
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| no es mi culpa Independent Beantown
| Originally Posted by avsp who says we're being cruel to him. dude, can you imagine what that type of analysis would be like for politicians????
wow. i mean really. that would be cool. i wonder what type of aura bush has........ | ||||
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08-01-2007, 12:24 PM
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| Originally Posted by avsp I can only describe my internal dialogue. I never had one until I was at my lowest of lows. Then I heard my voice calling to me. Asking me why are you so down. It was very rational and almost cold at first. saying yes your father died your still alive. You will get better and you will live a happy life.
I started listening to this trying to block out all the internal noise. When I say internal noise I mean the constant thoughts coming through cluttering up your mind about the most trivial things. I was having one of those really connectedness moments with everything and everyone and all I felt was love and compassion where I just want to be in that moment forever and that is when I realized the voice I started listening to was the God within all of us. God's voice speaking to me clearly about my specific situations I found myself in. I have even made a term for it. I call it listening to silence. I hope that helps. I have also found that I have another voice internally and it is my own mind just wanting to argue everything that pops into my head significant or not. LAtely I have found I have to really concentrate to listen for answers without my own mind making up answers for me. Almost tricking me to believe in it. I no the true voice from the other simply because it is always the answer of compassion and love if that makes sense. During my down times it kicked me in the ass because that is what I needed. During my normal times or staus quo it is usually very compassionate and directing me towards the answers with the most love in it. I hope I described that right as it is difficult to do so. When I talk about praying I mean literally calming the mind from all the distractions and talking to this voice internally. Never voiced external unless I am in one of those "give me a sign God" moments then it might be external. It is usually just a simple dialogue explaining my needs (which are almost always answered), sometimes my wants (even though these have never been answered), and usually giving thanks for what I have in my life currently. I must admit it as I am very guilty of usually praying for my needs rather than giving thanks. I think both are equally important. I also will occassionally pray for others in need or circumstance. To answer your question not literally night and day meaning up all night and all day praying non stop. I mean whenever it came into my thoughts I would pray. If I was to guestimate it would have been 20-30 times a day and probably in my dreams too. If your wondering how this happened I can explain clearly how it did. I was very sheltered growing up. Prior to this I was a walking egotistical, macho, hard exterior male who was caught up in that scene as most males are during their teens trying to fit in. My world was great with little complaints. My thoughts were primarily about girls in every shape and form. Then my world got turned upside down overnight. Death literally came knocking on my little world. Everything I believed in and lived did not matter what so ever any more. Forever everything changed for me almost instantaneously. It cracked my shield I had put up and my heart found its way out. I started to see signs of the other world even before the death of my father, but while he was very sick. I started to actually predict the future. A perfect example of this was writing in my diary about my father saying he looks dead already and death will be here soon. I was worried about this so I told my dad my feelings. He looked at me and said he was not worried about my future at all (I was also the trouble maker with no real goals in life). I told him he was free to leave this earth and don't stay here on my account. He smiled and squeezed my hand. Sure enough the next day he died. I see it as a fundamental re-organization within. Starting from scratch all over as if I was a newborn so to speak. I was cracked open from circumstance, it was sink or swim for me at this point and I chose to swim. It was a turning point in my life and for the first time I took responsibility for my whole self and realized how I am connected to the bigger picture. I have talked to many in the spiritual know about this and many saints (no way am I comparing myself to a saint as I am very far from it) and others have had similar conversion. Using this as an exmplae since these accounts are very well documented and written about. Also I have heard about it in many tribal cultures. Specifically the Native Americans whom go on a vision quest when they turn of age and they want to find their animal helper. It takes removing themselves from what they know and starving their needs (i.e. water, food) so to bring about a fundamental change to their status quo. It usually comes to a choice in someone's life also by tragedy, or self cicumstance (i.e. drugs, alcohol, etc) where they realize they must make a decision and choose a different path. I have also heard of folks making this decision with nothing really going wrong in their life but yet they sought out something more. They never felt complete or fullfilled in life. This is more rare however since most average people have so many distractions it is really hard to get beyond your own mind's trap. I will use an example hopefully he won't mind.... ProStreet (his post started this dialogue) had this same thing happen to him when he felt so much despair. His world as he knew it changed fundamentally and it will never be the same. He found his peace and voice within. His danger is it can get muddied by anger and revenge and be just a sidenote in his life. | ||||
